You know, instead of sitting in a dark room fasting for a month, why don't you take that vacation and let your soul reboot so to speak. Maybe a site seeing traveling tour, see some landmarks. It really would help you feel refreshed. Give you some new perspectives maybe?
Join a local karate club and work out with some people, you like that stuff and it might be fun.
Take a class at the local college? Maybe an art class if you like that, something fun and to look forword to. I loved sculpting myself.
You sit at home plugging away (not complaining! Love all the stories that roll out!) and you work on your house, repair and upgrading. EVERYONE needs some down time to have fun. It's what makes it all worthwhile and tolerable.
Go visit your mom for a weekend, she'd love that! Though she might have a "honey do" list for you... lol
Please consider it. It's been over 2 years with you saying your taking a vacation and haven't yet. Just go and do........ and have FUN.